I am sharing a message of hope today for a world wracked by anxiety and fear, both of which can only lead to deep feelings of depression. I have had much experience with these feeling during a lifetime of addiction and living with the effects of the disease. I often get asked " why are you so happy today?". I have found happiness by learning how to have peace with the past and I find the acceptance of the that, once I experienced this moment, it is now the past. I learned about the value and ability to accept and live with the past through membership in 3 different recovery programs. The peace I have today, when I look back, was not just rooted in acceptance but in a profound belief that it was truly the grace of the God of my understanding and the deep love from this God that made my experience possible. This understanding started in a very simple way with the knowledge that I have only ever had to suffer in life for as long as it took to realize I needed to change. So by understanding that the universe isn't really against me, I was able to break out of the trauma and victimization that was keeping me in active addiction with and without substance. For the past few years I have been extremely grateful that, although I am unable to change the past, the present has changed the way I look at the past. I can't change the grief of lost family members and friends due to the disease of addiction but, I can change how I act about it today. There was truly relevance and meaning to all of my life experiences that have enabled me to live and even thrive to this day. My hope for you is if you are suffering with yesterdays, just know you are not alone. My path out was truly spiritual at its core and if that is not available to you, my hope is that you are able to find it through another just like you who loves you enough to share their hope. My desire today is to help others find freedom from their pasts by seeing it's blessing in the present. I am truly grateful for the grace of my higher power and the love of all peoples in the programs that continue to help others.
Thanks for my recovery.
Please reach out, you are not alone!