TO ANYONE STRUGGLING WITH ADDICTIONS AND/OR MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES. I LOVE YOU, RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE AND YOU'RE WORTH THE WORK. I SPENT APPROXIMATELY 26 YEARS OF MY LIFE USING SUBSTANCES TO COPE WITH MY ISSUES.
- -1628 Days ago I decided not use Alcohol/Cocaine/Etc.
- -310 Days ago I decided not to use Cigarettes
- -180 Days ago I decided to not use Marijuana
- -537 Days ago I accepted my mental health issue and the required treatments to manage my mental health.
While under the influence of all the above chemicals, I was very unhealthy, unstable and unhappy. As the years went by I realized these chemicals I used where only symptoms of the real issues I was trying to escape. To name a few: trauma, abandoned issues, low self esteem, insecurities, codependency, untreated mental health issues and mainly a unwillingness to accept that all these issues needed to be accepted & treated for me to recover. Recovery isn't easy by any means, life still happens, I have lost friends, family, jobs, my right to have visitation with my children, etc. life doesn't magically become fair just because I am sober. It is life after all, Regardless I wake up grateful and happy everyday, I always see new possibilities for growth and success no matter my situation. I decided to change by asking for assistance and by doing the work to the best of my ability. This started the lengthy healing process, which eventually gave me the ability let go of my past trauma, accept life's difficulties and enjoy a life without drugs and unhealthy behaviour. I REALIZE I WAS DIFFICULT TO HELP AT TIMES, SO A HUGE THANK YOU TO ALL THE RESOURCES/PEOPLE THAT ASSISTED ME IN THIS JOURNEY, TO NAME A FEW. The 12 step groups, smart recovery, Leave a Light Project, Our Collective Journey, various religious groups, physiatrists, psychotherapists, sponsors, law enforcement, friends and family. I appreciate everyone who took part in this difficult and rewarding process.
Please reach out, you are not alone!